Have you ever listened to a couple tell “their story”? How they met, how they started dating, what made them first realize the other person was “the one”? Every story is unique, and I don’t just mean in a positive way. Sometimes you’re listening to one of those stories and all you can think is […]Read more "Looking for a co-pilot"
“The soul is a thing so impalpable , often so useless, occasionally annoying, that its loss cost me just a little less emotional disturbance than if I had, on a walk, lost my calling cards.” -Charles Baudelaire, Le Spleen de Paris, XXIX On April 30, 1966, Anton LaVey founded the Church of Satan, the first […]Read more "What Satanism and Christianity Have in Common"
I thought I’d try writing out some of my fears, mostly to see if I can categorize and extrapolate on them to understand them and myself a bit better. We’ll see. Anyway, here they are: -Rejection, typically of any kind, no matter if I care about being approved of by the person, group, or institution […]Read more "Things I fear"
“Will I ever get married?” is a question I’ve always asked myself but rarely ever felt the answer wasn’t somehow definite. I knew I would get married, buy a house, have kids, and all that jazz because it was going to happen. Of course it would, how could it not? It may sound silly to […]Read more "The Story and the Plan"
I think everyone has experience being an outsider, being outcast, being unwanted. If you never have… congratulations, I guess? I… don’t know how you managed that but… that’s good, then? But for everyone who has, it’s a terrible experience, made all the more worse when you are the sole exclusion. Whether it’s from a group […]Read more "Let me in"
So I’ve talked a lot about events in my own life and how they’ve effected my struggles with mental illness. And one of the things I’ve learned is not to get caught up in the past and what could have been. But there is one thing I want to look back on here. It’s something I’ve only found […]Read more "What it means to matter"
So one thing I don’t like is when people put together one of those book lists with a whack-load of books on it and you’ve heard of maybe like, three of them. But then it’s prefaced with some sort of challenge in the title, like “50 books you need to read before you die,” or […]Read more "A Year of Reading Women"